I guess if I'm hoping to write about how my family arrived where we currently are, I should take a minute to go back with you all and catch you up to speed.
My husband and I have been married for ten years. In those ten years, we have had a family member suffer a life altering stroke, another a traumatic brain injury, multiple women in our family walked through and died from cancer. Our first child and only daughter was stillborn. We buried her. We buried a father. We suffered for multiple years with undiagnosed illnesses before discovering that our house was poisoning us and our three successive children. We have sunk all of our finances into medical debt and remediation of our home. Currently, we have sold our home in an effort to live closer to family and church community as we have many ongoing medical needs stemming from the toxicity that our bodies are still carrying.
We are weary. We are battered and bruised and exhausted.
But in all of that, in all of the trauma and tragedy and loss, we have been loved on by the One who made us. He has protected our marriage. He has provided family that has graciously welcomed us into their house while we wait for our next family home. He has given us a team of care givers who, not only are incredibly gifted in their line of work, lavishly tend to our family and our various needs. He has brought new, rich friendships into our lives- these people continuously point our gaze back to the Father.
So, yeah, we have been pretty beat up, but we are not conquered by our situations.
I'll wrap up this little "wrap-up" with this passage that I have marinated on for the last year:
"We are hard press on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed...
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:8-9, 16-18
So join me, reader, as I strive to focus on the eternal.
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